EATING DISORDER.

Eat your food. Why do I need to eat my food when my body is so full but it is not full? I hate the way my body looks but I love the way my body sways. It’s only when I’m alone do I feel like a lonesome king. It’s when I go out into public that I see my body switch. Why does my body move like that? It’s never why it feels differently than today or the day before and then from 3 days ago. Why does it smell like that? Why does my body move from being water weight to food weight to air weight to god weight. It’s like my body is looking for a suitable match for my soul. The one that will love my body. My body is at one with the right partner. My body is no issue for you, It’s not an issue for your family. Because it is just me and you. My eating disorder is looking for the right one to share my world with. I am chunky but fat but skinny. I hate the way we look at different bodies in the way they are for us humans to please us sexually and those around you? Am I for you or your friends? What is behind the body? Does my soul fit my body yes it does. That’s why I know my body is the perfect one. Perfect as in they see my soul working alongside my body. My body is the way it was meant to be in order to have the soul I can now call home. So I eat and I binge and my stomach throws it back out. Where does it go? My body my soul or my spirit. Pick one. It is the body of a child that was molested but became an object to those around him as sexually appealing for having been molested at an early age that they eat food to look unattainable. Unattractive Unappealing. Do not eat anymore food. When the party is over where do we go after? I ate all the same food over and over and over and it taste and feels the same so I tell my mind to gain more weight so my brain will think I am eating something different than the day before. Gaining weight to eat more. Anorexia Bulimia Nervosa. Throwing up in the body. My body is nervous about what is going into my body. I love the way my body moves with you. I love the way my body feels in you. I love the way my body sweats with you. I love the way my soul smells with you. I love the way my body smells with you. I love my body sells itself to you. I love the way my body sells itself unto you. I love the way my body feels sensually with you. I love the way my body feels sexually with you. I love the way my body has sex with you. My body is a temple with you. My body won with you. My body is yours my boo. My body is stapled to you. My body can change for you. My asshole can turn into an vagina for you. I can turn my body around for you. I can turn around for you. I can turn your vagina into a asshole for you. My vagina is yours my boo. My asshole is yours for you too sweet love. I am as sexual as I allow and I allow myself to be sexually pleasing in ways inexplicably unattainably enrichfull to you. Yours truly Yovani Bernard.©YovaniBernard